20 YEARS. A FRANTIC EFFORT (2023)
released November 17, 2023 on Pirates Press Records (PPR341)
A1. BURNT OUT
Blackout!
Straight, it all went down the drain
It’s the little things that matter that I blame
Desperate you
You burnt out
You burned down to the ground
Blackout!
Wait, let’s waste another day
It’s the problems that remain, remain the same
Desperate you
You burnt out
You burned down to the ground
OK
Desperate you
Now, look down
I am right here with you
OK
A2. ANOTHER TIME BOMB
Just another time bomb baby – let’s go (let’s go)
Just another time bomb, baby
I’m ready to explode
I don’t want anything from you
I’m sick of being told
You say “I’m sorry” but I’m not
Just another time bomb baby – let’s go (let’s go)
I’m just about to blow up
A3. DOWN OUT AND LOW
Look out honey
I know you’re just a waste of time
cause I know
what you are doing
what you are saying
what you are trying
I see the pain in your eyes and
something’s coming up
but I don’t know
you better give up
you better let go
Look out honey
I ain’t nothing better than that
cause I’m down and I’m out
and that’s all you get
See the smile that I’m faking
something’s coming up
but I don’t know
we better give up
we better let go
Cause we’re down out and low
we’re down out and low
I heard you say
you tried everything you can
we’re down out and low
A4. NOT ANOTHER MINUTE
I don’t wanna spend my time talking to you
cause you ain’t got nothing to say
you ain’t got a clue
Not another minute
I can’t stand it
Can’t stand it now
A5. SHAMBLES
Stop! Look around
Too many shambles pave my way
They say “that’s life”
But I’ve heard they’re never right
People that pass
They seem to be so far away
Contagiousness signs
Taped on their chest
6 am the night’s almost through
Are you out there too
Tryin‘ keep trying moving on
I spend my night, well every night
Breaking my head in two
With shambles, cigarettes and you
B1. ONE AND A MILLION MILES
Well alienation is a matter of fact now
I was taken out of the game since I don’t know when now
And it’s one and a million miles
to you
And I don’t need to fit in
B2. WE CAN’T HELP IT
Tired of that heartache
tired of a broken heart
it never seemed to happen
it never played a minor part
you traded my love
I’m tired of a fool’s game
I’m tired of this game called love
it never seemed to happen
to Annie Wilkes so brave so tough
she never traded her love
yeah you went on and then you took off
you and I can’t help it after all
B3. I NEED A NURSE
People say I’m some kind of an oddity
lock me up and throw away the key!
ain’t got no job
not much of a sellery
oh yeah I’m teenage lobotomy
Oh you’ve got it
I need a N-U-R-S-E baby
I need a nurse
you’ve got it
I need a N-U-R-S-E baby
I need a nurse
it’s getting worse
I never really learned to write or read
you won’t love me baby when I’m on sp**d
my mind’s cracked I ain’t got much to say
only a nurse would help me throught the day
Oh you’ve got it
I need a N-U-R-S-E baby
I need a nurse
you’ve got it
I need a N-U-R-S-E baby
I need a nurse
it’s getting worse
I need a nurse – I need my medication
I need a nurse – I need my inspiration
I need a nurse to keep me up
cause everybody brings me down
A nurse would make it all alright
I ain’t never gonna give up
a nurse would help me through
D-U-M-B – everytone’s accusing me
I need a nurse – I need my medication
I need a nurse – I need my inspiration
I need a nurse to keep me up
cause everybody brings me down
B4. YOU MESSED MY HEAD UP
you know I’ve got problems
you know that I do
baby say that you do!
And if you don’t mind
I’m gonna ask you too
do you have that problem too?
My head’s out of shape
and my heart’s out of use
and I’m falling for you
there’s nothing to win
and nothing to lose
and I’m falling deeper and deeper
I know you’d be there for me
baby say that you do!
and if you don’t mind
I’m gonna tell you too
I’m gonna be there for you
I know you’re not aware of me
or any of my friends
but I’m falling for you
Baby let me tell you
it’s not over till it ends
and I’m falling deeper and deeper
You messed my head up
Gotta talk to you
Gonna talk to you
You messed my head up
C1. GIMME GIMME PLASTIC SURGERY
I don’t know why nothing turns out right
my best friend went off with my girl last night
Maybe I need a change
I need something to re-arrange
I don’t want to be me no more
Gimme gimme plastic surgery
that’s what I want
Second verse same as the first
C2. MY BABY QUIT REHAB
My baby quit rehab
she’s coming home
she was into medication
now she’s out on methadone
You don’t know that
it’s like hanging on a rope
I saw her hustling on the streets
to get a couple balls of dope
She’s really not alright
she’s calling late at night
get her back on medication
someone send her on vacation
oh no
My baby – she’s on heroin
oh yeah yeah yeah
oh no no no
C3. GET OUT OF MY HEAD
Honey I am stranded and I can’t go further than that
I’m trapped and I can’t say I like it much
Like a rat I keep on trying to survive
I can’t sleep
So I’ve to dream with my eyes open wide
I’m a little scared it ain’t getting better
Honey I’m sick and I can’t go on like this now
it seems
so bleak and I can’t seem to fix it
I’ll drag you down to pull me out of this daze
I can’t sleep
So I can’t dream I could use some Paraldehyde
It’s a lil’ weird it ain’t getting better
Get out of my head
Does it even matter?
I can’t take it
I won’t make it
I think I trip out this time
Get out of my head it ain’t getting better
Drag me down as I face the invincible night
Pull me out of a state of unbearable mind
I can’t take it I won’t make it
I think I trip out this time
Get out of my head it ain’t getting better
C4. ADDERALL
Adderall you’re everything I need
Adderall you make my mind complete
Adderall you drag me
out of real life
Adderall you make me loveable
Adderall you’re everything I want
Adderall you make me come undone
Adderall you drag me
out of real life
Adderall you make me loveable
Adderall
Adderall you drag me out of life
Adderall you drag me out alive
Adderall you drag me out of life
Adderall you drag me out alive
Adderall
C5. VALENTINE
Baby, I’m amazed by the things that you make me do
Cause there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to get close to you
There is nothing I wouldn’t say
Nowhere I wouldn’t go
Everything now makes sense
Now there is you
I love it that you say that your heart is the best defender
It’s guiding your way – never lose – never surrender
Yeah, the world outside is bad
But baby, we are not like that
So come on over and tell me
“I only love you”
I need to hear it tonight
I need to hear it tonight (tonight)
Tomorrow (again)
Forever (all time)
You’ll always be my valentine
D1. RAT IN A TRAP
Well I’ve had it up to you yeah
cause you don’t know when to stop or shut your mouth
I think you’d better disappear now
cause you’re nothing like a useless lil’ twerp
Alright
Perfect brain, perfect body
hey you’re such a lil’ treat to the girls
Last chance to make your mind up
be a man about it or waste in your little world
Alright
You’re just a rat in a trap
D2. JUST WANNA PLAY
Well i could break the news
that I ain’t got nothing to lose
No bride’s maid no diamond ring
no wedding dress to choose
I just wanna play
let’s call a spade a spade
this ain’t love
this ain’t fate
no honeymoon
no shiny groom
no promises to break
I just wanna play
D3. KILL OR CURE
given no chance now your hands are tied
now you know what to do
it ends right here right tonight
it’s kill or cure
given a heart now it’s outta use
now you see through
it’s sink or swim
win or lose
it’s kill or cure
it’s now it’s up to you
D4. DON’T RELY ON ME
Baby you relied on me
cause I said I’m always there
I didn’t know back then
this ain’t getting us nowhere
But I do want you to know
that you don’t have to be alone
but as time goes by
it seems that you don’t rely on me no more
Maybe you relied on me
cause I said I rely in you?
I didn’t know better than
but I think that it was true
I do want you to know
you meant everything to me
I never lied
I never did
when I said that I love you
Baby don’t rely on me tonight
D5. MONKEY BOY (Sandcastle Version)
Monkey man
Now you are, a monkey man
E1. STROLL THE STREETS
Well I know that you are better off without him
and I know that he ain’t good enough for you
These times can be rough
but baby we will be together
together stroll through the night
together forever
These streets – it seems like no one ever lived here
it’s just you and I and we’re on top of the world
Time’s standing still
and we know it’s now or never
together stroll through the night
together forever
We’ve gotta stroll the streets tonight
E2. STANDING ON MY HEAD
I’m broken and I’m stained
I’m shattered and I am blamed
To put you down, but keep you close
And I ain’t getting into you
And all your aspects
Of what life is all about
Put me back together
But this time turn me around
Cause you’ve wrapped me up
Standing on my head
I’m shattered I am stained
I’m broken and I’m blamed
Of marking time not moving on
That’s why I’m always late
So put me back together
I fell down a lot
Tape my heart, fix my brain
But this time
the right way up
Cause you’ve wrapped me up
Standing on my head
E3. I WANTED IT ALL
I never spent much time in school
I didn’t go to college
cause that’s not what I wanted to
No suit or tie to lose
to feel free
cause that’s just not
who I wanna be
I was never asking for much
I just wanted it all
there’s something else somewhere
now I gotta go
I wanted it all
E4. METAL MIND
I don’t know where to start
but I know where it’s gonna end
I’ve got metal parts and plastic tubes
in the back of my head
My battery runs low
my inter-human sense is dead
I’ve got metal covered brain mambranes
inside my head
Take my empty case apart
just reset and restart
I grew myself a leather skin
to protect my metal heart
Just get me back in use
just change my blown fuse
reset my heart back to start
get me back on the lose
Baby don’t you know that I’ve got
A metal mind
E5. DON’T TURN YOUR HEART OFF
there’s a fire inside
don’t kill it this time
just remember that you tend to get burned
you’ve been there before you learned
there’s your turn on that road
don’t miss it this time
just remember that you tend to get lost
you’ve been there before you trust
the future’s bright it’s alright
it seems surreal
don’t turn your heart off
whatever seems to be putting you down
whatever forces you turning around
whatever comes to your mind
if you think about what it takes
it’s true that you’ll probably never win
is it worth?
just don’t give in
don’t turn your heart off
F1. MENTALANE
There’s a path that I’ve decided to walk on now
But there’s this part of it that’s bringing me down
Mentalane
There’s this path that I’ve been walking for a while now
But there’s this part of it that’s making me sick
It seems so easy to ignore that it’s a dead end road
There’s no exit there in sight and I just wanna go home
And get you off my back
Try, and safe yourself
Safe yourself
F2. CHARITÉ FOREVER
As I walk through the dirty front door
into the dirty main floor
I said “you don’t have to wait”
you said “I always will”
and I was back on my feet
I wasn’t meant to be there
but it was you and I
against the night
not meant to be there
just time we had to waste
No looks on my dirty clothes
my dirty teeth dirty thoughts
I said “you don’t have to care”
you said “I’ll always do”
and I was back on my feet
I wasn`t meant to be there
but it was you and I
against the night
not meant to be there
just time we had to waste
Charité
charité forever baby
Forever
forever you
only you
Charité
charité forever baby
F3. WHERE WE BELONG
Take my hand
Shake off that past
And let’s stumble into the future
We might gonna run in circles
But at least we ain’t making time
We’ll shake our fists to the kings and queens
And we laugh in the face of the devil
We might gonna run forever
But at least we’re moving on
And it’s ok
I’m not goint away oh
And it’s alright
We keep holding on
Hold on
To where we belong
We make the rules
So we can break’em everytime we want to
We set the clock to a time when our dreams would come true
And we sit on top of the world
And watch the fire that we stired
No doubt about it
This place, we found it
It seems like we could make it after all
And it’s ok
I’m not goint away oh
And it’s alright
We keep holding on
To where we belong
F4. BEACH 90
Well I’ve lost my heart somewhere in the sand
somewhere by the shore
I’ve locked this feeling up in a shell
cause I’ve never felt like that before
and you don’t know me baby
you don’t know me at all
I feel so sad I feel so mad
but I smile to you
And this is my credit
to all of you
cause there’s no other place on earth
I’d rather go
And tonight
I’ve got beach 90 on my mind
Staring out the window
you’re so far away
I can’t find any sleep at night
can’t make it through the day
And you don’t know me baby
you don’t know me at all
I feel so sad I feel so blue
but still smile to you
And this is my credit
to all of you
there’s no better place on earth
I’d rather go
and tonight
I’ve got beach 90 on my mind
it’s alright
I’ve got beach 90 on my mind
Rock rock rockaway